Tuesday, March 17, 2009

Feeling empty

and discouraged. Still no call from the school that i applied. i followed up late last week and was told they were still going through the process but i dont know what that means. to me, if you are looking, then you should already be in the process, but eh whatever. and i dont know what else to do without seeming pestering - any suggestions anyone? i want them to know that i would be awesome for this job and i dont know what else to say or do!

the only other school i know of with an opening right now is a low income school and i would prefer to not have the added stresses of working there. i dont have anything against teaching at a low income school, except its REALLY stressful and i cannot afford stress in my life as thats what makes me sick.

i just feel so empty inside right now. this current job is so boring that no matter what i do, i just feel like i contributed zero. i dont like that but i wont complain out loud because to be fair everyone is really nice here and they were nice enough to hire me.

i am keeping myself active in the community. i have been volunteering for Susan G Komen race and thats this weekend. it feels really good to help others. i never did anything like this before mostly because i was always so busy but now i am not so i didnt have an excuse anymore and so i started helping.

i need more girlfriends. i have friends that are girls, but everyone is always so busy with their lives that its so hard for them to find time to do things to hang out. after repeated efforts, i just stop trying and leave it up to them.

i am just going to stay optimistic and know that everything always works out. hopefully my next post isnt all doom and gloom.

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