i only like the rainy weather when

i can sit at home and be all snuggly on my couch. i do not like to have to go to work when it is ugly out.

i had a good week overall. still looking for a teaching gig. i know it will all work out so i am staying positive.

will write more eventually...

OMG I almost freaked myself out just now

Last year when I was sick, I had some episodes in my legs where parts of my legs felt like they were wrapped in giant rubber bands. Well I just had that same feeling in my left arm and I about started to freak out, but then I realized that my jacket had taken my sleeve and rolled it up tight at the end, so thats what I felt! Thank God thats all it was! lol

Just a couple of updates today:

1. I took off of work Friday and went help hand out packets for Susan G. Komen and then I went help for the race on Saturday (REALLY early btw). It feels so good to help a cause and I will continue to do so.

2. I went watch some bands perform at the District festival on Friday afternoon and networked with some directors and got the word out that I am looking for next year.

3. I went visit my folks and also my aunt. I really missed them!

4. My husband stayed up late Sunday night making my resume look miles above every other resume on earth - he rocks!

5. Monday I went to the teacher job fair and passed around those resumes and networked with a variety of schools and parishes. I definitely have some leads, especially with business education (which I would LOVE to teach) and will be sending follow up emails to schools this afternoon. I want to CHOOSE where I will teach next year, so I am being proactive!

More later...

Feeling empty

and discouraged. Still no call from the school that i applied. i followed up late last week and was told they were still going through the process but i dont know what that means. to me, if you are looking, then you should already be in the process, but eh whatever. and i dont know what else to do without seeming pestering - any suggestions anyone? i want them to know that i would be awesome for this job and i dont know what else to say or do!

the only other school i know of with an opening right now is a low income school and i would prefer to not have the added stresses of working there. i dont have anything against teaching at a low income school, except its REALLY stressful and i cannot afford stress in my life as thats what makes me sick.

i just feel so empty inside right now. this current job is so boring that no matter what i do, i just feel like i contributed zero. i dont like that but i wont complain out loud because to be fair everyone is really nice here and they were nice enough to hire me.

i am keeping myself active in the community. i have been volunteering for Susan G Komen race and thats this weekend. it feels really good to help others. i never did anything like this before mostly because i was always so busy but now i am not so i didnt have an excuse anymore and so i started helping.

i need more girlfriends. i have friends that are girls, but everyone is always so busy with their lives that its so hard for them to find time to do things to hang out. after repeated efforts, i just stop trying and leave it up to them.

i am just going to stay optimistic and know that everything always works out. hopefully my next post isnt all doom and gloom.

so i started looking for a teaching job!

Officially i applied for a teaching position at a small, private school as a band director and general music teacher! i hope i get the opportunity to interview and i really hope they LOVE me and offer me the job! and if not, i know i will find something!

i am really excited about being a teacher again - sometimes i even shock myself! at least now i realize that i only left due to bad situations and general burnout. and both of those things i can control!

everything IS going to be fine in 2009!

I Had a Productive Day - YAY ME!!

8:00am - woke up

8:40am - left for Sunday mass

9:00am - Mass

10:00am - went to grocery store for milk, butter, toothpicks, paper towels, chicken, dish soap, and a newspaper

10:30am - went to Maurice, dropped off Kody at the cafe

11:00am - visited Mom and Dad

1:30pm - visited Aunt Tammy and Uncle Randy and the kids

2:30pm - came home

3:00pm - worked on band handbook to turn in for a job prospect and i really want this one!

4:00pm - hand washed my car (it was SO pretty outside today)

5:00pm - went get Kody

5:30pm - started dinner - baked bacon wrapped chicken breasts, homemade mashed potatoes, green bean casserole, and bread pudding for dessert 

7:00pm - ate dinner

7:30pm - now - working on lesson plan for same job prospect and still waiting on bread pudding

i feel good!

ps. kody killed 2 big ass ugly spiders in the house today - 1 in the bathroom this morning and 1 in the kitchen just now - EEEK! he is researching on the internet as to what kind they were because i am nothing short of freaking out right now!